My post today is going to be a bit more personal than what A and I normally post, but it should be nonetheless interesting (because, let’s face it, we all enjoy glimpses into personal unrest). I’m not really sure if this is a public apology or just a venting session, but regardless, it is a sentiment of regret.
Regret is an emotion that is probably one of the most common – whether we want to admit it or not. We always wonder what we could have done differently in any situation or whether we could change some outcome. Scientifically, regret is actually linked to the orbitofrontal cortex…making it an actual physical phenomenon.
More often than not, regret will lead to guilt. This guilt can be expressed in sadness, shame, embarrassment, sorrow, and remorse.
Personal actions committed of wrongdoing render an unconditional eating of the soul. Nothing is more painful – I would rather saw off my own arm. The worst of any type of regret is when you are unsure of what you regret; knowing only that there was some wrongdoing. Another is knowing you have wronged someone, you know they know, but you both ignore it. And finally, where you both know and are open to it …probably the easiest but no less painful.
So to the people this is specifically meant for (and there are quite a few of you) know I am so sorry for how I have wronged you. All I can do is wish and pray for your forgiveness. For everyone else, take this as a lesson. Always be the best you can be so that you can live without the burden of regret and guilt.
PS: On a happier note, this week A gave me a brilliant idea for a future post on hat-making! This will take me a few weeks to work on so that I can craft a few examples, but it should be pretty spectacular and I am truly looking forward to getting to share it with you all!