Regret

My post today is going to be a bit more personal than what A and I normally post, but it should be nonetheless interesting (because, let’s face it, we all enjoy glimpses into personal unrest). I’m not really sure if this is a public apology or just a venting session, but regardless, it is a sentiment of regret.

Regret is an emotion that is probably one of the most common – whether we want to admit it or not. We always wonder what we could have done differently in any situation or whether we could change some outcome. Scientifically, regret is actually linked to the orbitofrontal cortex…making it an actual physical phenomenon.

More often than not, regret will lead to guilt. This guilt can be expressed in sadness, shame, embarrassment, sorrow, and remorse.

Personal actions committed of wrongdoing render an unconditional eating of the soul. Nothing is more painful – I would rather saw off my own arm. The worst of any type of regret is when you are unsure of what you regret; knowing only that there was some wrongdoing. Another is knowing you have wronged someone, you know they know, but you both ignore it. And finally, where you both know and are open to it …probably the easiest but no less painful.

So to the people this is specifically meant for (and there are quite a few of you) know I am so sorry for how I have wronged you. All I can do is wish and pray for your forgiveness. For everyone else, take this as a lesson. Always be the best you can be so that you can live without the burden of regret and guilt.

-C

PS: On a happier note, this week A gave me a brilliant idea for a future post on hat-making! This will take me a few weeks to work on so that I can craft a few examples, but it should be pretty spectacular and I am truly looking forward to getting to share it with you all!

Credits:

http://www.dreamstime.com/stock-images-stock-images-black-white-abstract-art-background-image12315234

http://kochis.net/wp/?tag=black-and-white

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A Confession of Mortality and Dreams

After rereading many of my posts, it struck me how frequently I speak of death. This surprised me quite a bit because, if anyone, I’m someone who is obsessed with living life. With more goals and ambitions than I can count, it was shocking to see how at the same time, I appear to be death obsessed.

But that is wholly untrue. My obsession lies within the idea of embracing morality and making life worthwhile. St. Jerome was believed to keep a human skull on his desk to remind himself of mortality. So did H.L. Mencken and many philosophers. The concept is anything but new, but at the same time, I feel like it has never reached as many people as it should.

It sickens me to see people who, for the most part, go through the motions of life, never accomplishing the little things they dream of. And then it’s too late. They see that they’ve messed up, and always wonder what things could have been like.

Now I’m not advocating you quit your job and go out to become a hermit. That is far from what I am saying. Responsibilities are a part of morality. But, rather, add in what makes you happy and keeps you motivated!

With these ideas in mind, I set out on creating my own “bucket list” (it also seems like I have an obsession of taking on tasks…haha). It was around 3:00AM on Sunday when I started. I think your mind is most fresh when you are on the verge of a sleep deficiency. You are more vulnerable and honest.

My list came to be about 40 items long. Some were random and others were cliché. But all of them had meaning to me. Finally having all of this written down, it feels even more feasible.

I am tempted to share some of my own items, but at the same time, I don’t want to influence anyone’s list. You should put on it what you truly want to accomplish, not what think you should accomplish.

Go get writing! Keep it where you can see it, that way it’ll always be fresh in your mind and you’ll work towards it.

-C

P.S.: The pictures are just random from around my home of things that make me happy. Like you should make your list do. Go do it. That is all. =)